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Sunday, 07 June 2009
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Holly
By Justin Nozuka
see relatedSeven Years !
It's funny. I remember when I first had a xanga, around 2002 in middle school. I vented about how lame my life was, how I just wanted to leave, how jealous I was of people that could live in the sun of California and Hawaii. I used to think life in the middle of New Jersey was the worst deal anyone could have. Humid summers, freezing winters, allergy filled springs. Only thing that would really keep me going would be my friends. Other than that, I thought I was the unluckiest 13 year old on the planet.
Same entry, some guy I didn't even know commented. I just knew him as the guy that commented random "God Bless"es around random xangas, mine being one of them. He said something along the lines of:
"hey bro maybe you should try to find the good in what you have rather than worrying about the good you don't"
(I remember this because he ended up marrying my ex-girlfriend....long story) Looking back on it, I really didn't take it too seriously. Why would one guy saying "it's not as bad as you think" change my "life sucks" perspective?
Ok it's 4 AM. And I'm still writing because 1) I can't sleep. 2) There's a Family Matters marathon on Nick at Nite. and 3) Seven years later, I just realize how right that guy was.
My whole life, I've always found a way to look at the glass as half empty. Where I would be at that moment would never be good enough so I would make changes in my life to try to make it better, as if it wasn't already good. I would make changes that, in my eyes, would contribute to building that "perfect life", as if there is such a thing. I would expect these changes to lead to unrealistic changes. At times, I would change things around or move somewhere else just to get away from a bad situation. True Story: I once chilled in Baltimore for a week with a group of my boys just to get away from the stresses of life in New Jersey. Not bad right? Just a vacation. Except a week after I got back, got hit with the stresses once more, I grabbed a different group of friends and chilled in Virginia Beach for another week. Bad.
I've always used moving, or running, however you wanna call it, as something of a coping mechanism (If I used that right haha). Going into another move though, I have zero expectations and no malice towards anyone or anything that is Las Vegas. I'm not using it as a way to build that "perfect life" or as a reason to get away from home again. I just need to do something with my life. Something productive. I don't see life or any particular situation as something I need to run from. Yeah I'm leaving, but I'm leaving knowing I have something good waiting both in LV and NJ. So to everyone out there that really knows me now, don't worry, the glass is half full.
all that ^^^ is not important. the rest is ! (Not Really.)
I'm sure (or I hope) some (or few, or none, whatever) of you have heard of this site BUT I wanted to bring it up incase you never heard of it. As a favor for my girl Rebecca, I hope you pass this link around ! Buy a shirt, check the art, do whatever your heart desires, just as long as it's on fartminusf.com !
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Thursday, 30 April 2009
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The Heartfelt
By Figurine
see relatedComme Ci, Comme Ca
Pardon me while I get intellectual for a sec.
I don't think anyone is perfectly happy all the time. Or miserably sad, for that matter. For the most part, a lot of us, when asked "how we're doing", reply with something along the lines of "so-so". Why? Are we so indecisive that a genuine "great!" or "terrible!" would suffice? Instead, more often than not, we hear, "I'm good" or "Not bad" or, my favorite, "eh." (which is colloquial talk for "I could be better, I could be worse. Really, I'm indifferent and have no better way of expressing said indifference than with a shoulder shrug. So yeah. Whatever.").
I'm not saying that it's always a bad thing to not identify with being happy or being sad at the moment because, in all honesty, identifying with happiness or sadness can be difficult at times. What if you had one of those days that neither falls under the category of "good" or "bad". Where you see yourself going through the usual motions until you suddenly realize it's 11 PM and you need to wake up early again in the morning. Life isn't so black and white, is it? We have those gray days every now and then and for those days, when asked how we are, "so-so" is the only answer that fits. But here comes the point of this entry:
I'm not always happy, you're not always happy. That's not an issue, that's normal. The problem is when we settle for "content" far too often. In between happy and, well, unhappy. Just being indifferent. It pains me (and when I say it pains me, it must really pain me because I never say "it pains me") when I see friends, family members, and even strangers living life in a way that takes zero risk. Why? Because that is exactly what it is: risk. With the possibility of high reward comes the possibility of great loss and that understandably scares many people. But to all the people out there that live like this, allow me to throw a cliche your way:
YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE !
Said a million times and a million times over, yet so few of us take heed. We follow the rules, we go through the motions, we live life as if there's an orthodox way of living life. In reality, if you do what you've always done, you'll get what you've always got. No better, no worse. Yes, risk is intimidating and yes, we will have those "so-so" days. It's an inevitable part of life. What's important is we make moves to make life worth living. Don't settle for content. You only live once. Make it worth it.
PS. I never rant.....blame my philosophy class haha
Tuesday, 14 April 2009
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Bread & Roses
By Mr. Hudson & The Library
see relatedI've No Doubt
Jersey City. Toronto. Edmonton. Baltimore. Virginia. Burlington. New York City. Brooklyn. Queens. Columbus. Houston. Los Angeles. Irvine. San Diego. Riverside. Bakersfield. Jacksonville. Chicago. Manila. Cebu. Seoul. Boston. Philadelphia. Las Vegas. Orlando.
It might sound corny but when I feel like I don't have it as good as others, I look back at all the places I've been blessed enough to go in my life. Being able to go to those 25 cities in the past nine years (and making memories there) is crazy to me. The fact that 2000-2009 is closing out makes me really look back at my "growing up" years and it makes me realize just how great my life's been so far. Not bragging, just grateful. Words can't even express how thankful I am to everyone that's ever been in my life and to God for bringing me this far. So if you ever hear me complaining about shit that really doesn't matter, call me on it, because I don't have the right to. Life's been too good to have any complaints. Could it be better? Sure, who's life is perfect? But has it been bad? Haha hell no, far from it. When it comes down to it, no matter where God brings me in the next ten years, I have no doubt that it'll be better than anything I could plan for myself.
Btw, if you're not up on at least a bit of the UK music scene, cheeeeck it:
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